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The One Where I Confess…

by Vicki Garcia on September 24, 2012

Ok, I just have to get some things off my chest. This is a confession of sorts. Not that I’ve been hiding anything on purpose. If you read my blog with any regularity you know I’m a pretty open book. It’s just that I haven’t been blogging. How can you know what’s going on if I don’t tell you? Well, I’m about to tell you. You might want to go get a drink before you start reading.
So, this transition I wrote about (the one where we pack all our stuff, say goodbye to everyone and move to Washington). It kinda sucks more than I thought it would. It’s most definitely a great time for me to practice all the tools I’m always telling you about. I am going to be THE BEST COACH EVER, if practicing has anything to do with it.
Here’s what I’m confessing:

1. I can’t think of a damn thing to write about. I know tons of stuff I could share with you but when it comes to writing it down, I suddenly become empty of any and all knowledge, ideas, opinions or useful information. My goal was to blog at least once per week. I actually kept that up until the time of our move and then everything went to hell in a hand basket. Please, someone tell me what I should write about!!!!
2. I’m crying. A lot. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss having a network of people nearby who know me and love me anyway.
3. I don’t feel motivated to do anything with my business. Nada.
4. I’m drinking way too much coffee and um, other types of beverages…
5. I’m not eating all the healthy stuff I used to.

Know what this means? It means I’m human and I’m going through a transition that is difficult. Know what else it means? It means I get to PRACTICE what I teach. J Here’s how I’m doing that:

1. I’m giving myself a break on the blogging thing. I’m doing it when I can and when I can’t, I don’t. You have to just give yourself a friggin break sometimes.
2. When I feel like crying, I cry. I don’t try to be all brave and hold it in. I cry like a baby. It’s healing and gives me perspective and reminds me of all the wonderful people and things I have in my life. Crying is good stuff, even when it doesn’t feel like it. Also, I don’t try to go it alone. I call a friend and vent and cry and laugh. Why suffer alone? Pain is an inevitable part of life. Suffering is completely optional.
3. I know that feelings lie. All the time. Feelings are big, fat liars. So, I am paying attention to my feelings and doing my best to act on my commitments. Never act on your feelings or you’ll probably do something you’ll regret. Take it from me. I know this from lots and lots of experience.
4. Yep, too many beverages are being consumed. The answer, sign up for a 10 day detox. That should do the trick! J
5. See answer #4.

Well, there’s my big confession. I guess it’s not so big after all. You already knew that I’m not perfect and that I do my best to practice what I teach. Well, just so you know, I’m here, in Washington, doing just that. Practicing.
Ooooh, look at me! I just wrote a blog post. See, talking to you always helps.